D' Signs of Leaving

after all of the things that i have encountered along the paths of my cruel life, i had the chance again to experience the same thing, but is more graveyard than before. yep yep this might be the reason for having a written list of what is wrong, those things ive told him all along..

this is it, the signs and symptoms (manifested?). hindi ba nga dapat tinanggap ko na mula sa simula pa lamang na ndi lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay mananatili kung ano ito. Everything is temporary, nothing (ang alam ko) is permanent, so kung ano man ang meron ako ngayon, kelangang tanggapin na hindi ito magiging akin habambuhay.

Minsan kahit na pilitin mong uminit ang damdamin....hinDi siya susunod, at di maglalambing. Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal..
kahit pa anong gawin. di ko na mapilit at maraya, ang amini sa sarili ko na wala na akong maibubuga..! parang isang kandila na nagdadala ng ilaw at liwanag, nauubos din sa magdamag... T_T

i really cried last night, being drunk.. i, i felt like i was a damn singer who never earned in selling his own album, a loser of his dreams.. those tears that i had cried emphasizes the reasons of what and why should i be here in this world, confronting things in nowhere, around something that is invulnerable.. the reasons of having money and fame, yet leading to an empty heart.
but whatever it is, i must go on.. but how? how and how?

---- where did i go wrong? i lost him somewhere along in the bitterness ----
we need to talk, sit down its just a talk. smiles politely, stare politely
some sort of windows to your right,
HE GOES LEFT AND I STAYED RIGHT
between the lines of FEAR AND BLAME
i began to wonder why he came..


before i go to bed, here's something for all of you.. i hope someone was here for me. i hope so.. find my mood with this song.