When you're gone...

Hershy, Jas, Evert, Joan, Ate Aster, Fonz and kuya Tony (L-R)


This day wasnt bad at all. I got my certificate for Serminar ng First Aid and Basic Life Support from Quezon City Rescue Team.. = )
I also attended the Orientation for the 2nd sem OJT.. hay, but what matters is, im still down.
On Bended Knee, i cant make things better.. running away from the river of death, i strive to escape my dreams, dreams which recalls the things happened again and again.


Actually, There are lots of things i can do to forget about that matter for a moment,
i played DOTA with my berkz.

or Go to malls, Trinoma or Sta Lucia, Mega Mall or Robinsons Metro East.
but what about? hel after those short moment of laughter with them, i still fet the same thing afterwards. damn thing, i still remember those things when i was alone, goin' home.

Top Row (L-R) Marc Daniel Flores, Liberato Santos, Christian Cabana, Francis Grabriel Olalia, Chris Evert Ramos
Bottom Row (L-R) Jayson Credo, Kristoffer Loizze Tacata, Noel Cabale Jr.,



to my dear, when you're Gone, the pieces of my heart is missing you.
right now i dunno what to do, i hope ur okay ur fine, wish u the best.
i really hate to let go, but how am i supposed to make those things left work right?
i did my best. i hope it serves you well.
im so lonely for the time i ran away from my safe zone.
the tears i cried makes sense, my room was a hell after. reminiscin our past, sweet moments are the best to do, but it also create another reason to cry, not to accept that now, wala kana.. wala kana.. wala kana.. wala kana... at wala kana...
='(

I always needed time on my own, I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone, And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side..................................
When you walk away, I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

here's the video.. despair.. i cry



by the way, mr. Bienvenido Toliao, was inviting me to come Trinoma, 2pm onwards, bukas. October 31,2007 . Gala Trip lang yata or something.. enjoy.. wanna come? text me sa globe (09053951575).. i want to make friends, to those who are masayang kasama. or kahit hindi, mag iyakan tayo magdamag. i hope there's someone to hear me. =I

Eminences of HeartBreak

Bienvenido Toliao
(Choi)
www.friendster.com/choisushi


- thank you..



this man, a cute fella, who lifts me up this day. ahead was lonely hours in most resembled tradgedy, not only for my heart.. its also for my soul.
we talked about things goin around me for a period of time.. i never expected that he would eventually carry me up about this matter. upon receiving those encouraging words, i suddenly felt i was once a one of a kind. but rather become a man of another dream. hanged on the crown of a king who got tired of wearin it.

i said already, october 27 would be the last night na iiyak ako.
but i cant kept my promise. i cried, but not much, when choi played the song "tuyo na'ng damdamin" while we were in a conversation (a phone call).. i guess i cannot move on along while there's no another, we'll i have been taken for granted lang naman.. pero ndi ko masisi sarili ko. naging masyado akong mabait, mapag bigay.

thanks for being a good friend of mine, although ilang months palang tayo magkakilala. i never thought, there's people parin like you. i had known you before, but i still keep looking forward knowing you more.. Take care always

(by the way.. na replace ko na ang nawalang cellphone. e2 na new number ko)
0905-395-15-75 for globe
0922-630-39-06 for sun..
www.friendster.com/everto
www.friendster.com/everthouston
evert_einstein011@yahoo.com

thanks din pala kay RAWd ng www.biggermanila.org

ho'y tama na baka maiyak nako d2.. hehehe
before i go, i'll leave something again..
(take note, i cant find an MTV of this song)

D' Signs of Leaving

after all of the things that i have encountered along the paths of my cruel life, i had the chance again to experience the same thing, but is more graveyard than before. yep yep this might be the reason for having a written list of what is wrong, those things ive told him all along..

this is it, the signs and symptoms (manifested?). hindi ba nga dapat tinanggap ko na mula sa simula pa lamang na ndi lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay mananatili kung ano ito. Everything is temporary, nothing (ang alam ko) is permanent, so kung ano man ang meron ako ngayon, kelangang tanggapin na hindi ito magiging akin habambuhay.

Minsan kahit na pilitin mong uminit ang damdamin....hinDi siya susunod, at di maglalambing. Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal..
kahit pa anong gawin. di ko na mapilit at maraya, ang amini sa sarili ko na wala na akong maibubuga..! parang isang kandila na nagdadala ng ilaw at liwanag, nauubos din sa magdamag... T_T

i really cried last night, being drunk.. i, i felt like i was a damn singer who never earned in selling his own album, a loser of his dreams.. those tears that i had cried emphasizes the reasons of what and why should i be here in this world, confronting things in nowhere, around something that is invulnerable.. the reasons of having money and fame, yet leading to an empty heart.
but whatever it is, i must go on.. but how? how and how?

---- where did i go wrong? i lost him somewhere along in the bitterness ----
we need to talk, sit down its just a talk. smiles politely, stare politely
some sort of windows to your right,
HE GOES LEFT AND I STAYED RIGHT
between the lines of FEAR AND BLAME
i began to wonder why he came..


before i go to bed, here's something for all of you.. i hope someone was here for me. i hope so.. find my mood with this song.